Sa hiwalayan nila ni James Reid: ‘I’m still healing’ – Nadine Lustre

KAHIT NA madalas na nakikitang magkasama ang ex-partners na sina James Reid at Nadine Lustre, mukhang  for business purposes lang ito dahil hindi pa sila nagkakabalikan bilang romantic couple.

Sa latest interview kay Nadine Lustre ng Nylon Manila ay nag-open up ito na nasa ‘healing’ stage pa rin siya. Halos apat na taon din ang tinagal ng working and romantic relationship nila ni James Reid.

Sa hiwalayan nila ni James Reid: 'I'm still healing' - Nadine Lustre
James Reid and Nadine Lustre

“Gusto ko, ‘pag tapos na, tapos, alam mo ‘yon? Or ‘pag may gusto akong mangyari, dapat mangyari na kaagad. But now, I’m allowing myself time to heal, to process things. Ganon kasi ako before, like in the breakup, which really changed me and my mindset,”

Dagdag pa niya, “Before, I wanted to get over it to not get hurt or overthink about it or feel bad…We tend to do that just because we don’t want to be affected. Again, I wouldn’t say I’m completely healed from that, like I’m still going through it. But this time, I’m allowing the time and I’m not rushing myself. It would take a long time, but I know I’ll get there.”

Hindi naman sikreto sa publiko na very vocal si Nadine sa kanyang pinagdadaanang mental health issues tulad ng anxiety at depression na nagiging talamak na sa mga kabataan. Nang tanungin kung paano niya hinaharap ang mga ‘trauma’ na kailangan niyang lagpasan,

“I used to just completely shut off from people… no closure, no healing from past traumas, including friendships,”

“I’ve always been afraid of being left behind. I’m afraid of being abandoned, because that’s how it feels when you’re in a relationship for a long time and you separate. It changes you a lot. It makes you feel like there was something wrong with you that’s why the person left you. Before, I would blame myself. I would think to myself: ‘May pagkukulang ako or may ginawa ako.’”

“But you know, I would say I’m slowly ascending from that trauma. You can’t put a timeline on it. It’ll just happen,” Lustre shares.

Sa hiwalayan nila ni James Reid: 'I'm still healing' - Nadine Lustre
James Reid and Nadine Lustre

S’yempre, may mga araw na nagiging emosyonal pa rin ito kapag naaalala niya ang mga pinagsamahan nila noon ni James.

“Of course, I won’t stop myself from feeling sad. That’s also four years of being together….it’s not like I’m not going to cry,”

“Before, I would stop myself from crying because I’d think it would only make me more sad. When you stop feeling that or going through the process, you’re also not allowing yourself from taking a step higher… If I don’t cry about it, it’s going to stay there, bottle up, and eventually, I might break down and get messed up even more,”

“But when you’re done, you move on.” pagtatapos nito.